Our Parsha this Shabbos is Parshat Bamidbar,' where HaShem speaks to Moses in the Wilderness of Sinai,in the Tent of Meeting,in the second year on the first of the second month (Iyar,as we are in now) after the Exodus from Egypt.HaShem commands that a census be taken.
But what has numbering/census counting got to do with 'Bamidbar,' a 'Wilderness.'Why should there be an accounting in a wilderness.
What is a wilderness?It is a place that is owner-less,a place that no one has bought or owns. It is a place of emptiness of civilization.It is a place that HaShem solely keeps uninhabited by people.HaShem owns all things with people,to who He gives it,but a wilderness remains solely HaShem's.It is untouched by human impurity.It is a place where only HaShem and nothing else can be heard without outside interference form other life.This is the place where HaShem chose to mention the 'counting.'It is in a wilderness,where it is just HaShem and us,that we can quietly take an accounting of ourselves without outside interference and excuses for our need to make ourselves better.It is in this wilderness that we can truly sit with HaShem and take a good long look at ourselves and see what we need to make better with ourselves.A wilderness is a place of total humility where nothing fancy or superficial can exist.It is in humility,that we can truly hear HaShem.For HaShem is close to the humble of spirit,and when we humble ourselves,we take away the outer physicality and see that all is HaShem.It is in such a place,a place of humility that we can truly see the truth and get a proper accounting of our failings so that we can better ourselves and come closer to HaShem.It is in this humble 'Wilderness' - 'Bamidbar,' where we can truly hear HaShem speak to us for all else is nothing but HaShem.We see this in the very word 'Bamidbar,' for it can be separated into 'Ba Medaber,' which means, 'Speaking comes (in).' It is in the Wilderness,where HaShem speaks to us and due to the physical emptiness and humility of this place,that we can deeply hear HaShem as we all listen to HaShem within this place,with our Souls.This speech/speaking will go deep within us and let us see where we need to work on being more Holy.For HaShem's very Voice is light and as HaShem Speaks to us,His light penetrates our souls and forces any impurity to be accounted for and leave.We will thus emanate,HaShem's voice from within us and be a true light of HaShem.
It is in the Wilderness,where we can listen with our souls in humility and purify ourselves so we can be at one with HaShem.
So,let us all taken an accounting in total humility,while we are counting these last days of the Omer and get ourselves ready to meet HaShem with purity on Shavuot and bring on the Final Days so Heaven can come down to Earth and all can be within It's beautiful light - the Light of HaShem.We must never stop taking a count and numbering what we need to fix,so that we can constantly grow and join with HaShem's precious love.
I wish You HaShem with deepest love,a beautiful Shabbos Kodesh with love and I wish you all a beautiful Shabbos Kodesh with love.