Our Parsha this Shabbos is 'Acharei Mot,' - 'After the death,' and this refers to the death of Aharon's two sons Nadav and Avihu.To be a High Priest takes the greatest Holiness,and so,comes with obligations to keep this holiness.Nadav and Avihu were died within a Holy place of the Sanctuary and Aharon remained silent.The responsibility of such holiness is sometimes physically hard to understand if we continue to see this world around us as only a physical place.The same is the loss of anyone close,for we do not see before or after a person is in this world unless HaShem grants it.The feelings of loss of those we love is immeasurable and how often do we ask why.We do not look at what really happens after this person has moved on.We only feel the here and now of this person's passing.This pain surely cannot be less for the High Priest himself.Yet Aharon was silent.Aharon,the man who dealt so closely with the connection between HaShem and us,through the Holy Sanctuary.
We aren't Aharon,but we too are capable of great holiness that we are not aware of.This holiness is so tied to HaShem that it extends past the physical and thus,a part of us is the same as other souls who move on,even though we don't see it.
When a person looks closely at a painting,all they see are the marks,lines,blotches and other shapes that look so incoherent that it really doesn't look like it makes any sense at all-like our lives and pain sometimes.Yet,when we take a few steps back and look again at the very same painting,we start to see how there was a picture there all along.This is exactly how this world is-it's pains and its joys.If we look at this world through only physical eyes,it will look like nothing makes sense.Yet from HaShem's point of view,all is a beautiful picture including the Neshomas of those we have lost.
HaShem wants us to trust him totally and so ,even when someone is lost,this is only how it appears to us from the inside.The more spiritual we become,the further away we can look at the true picture of what really is.This we need to work on every day by listening to and following HaShem in all things.Even when things try us.We are not seeing it all.When we start to become more Holy,then the sweetness in all things appear and we understand more of what really is.For as we get holier,we get closer to HaShem's perspective and then we see that no one is ever lost and every tragedy or unfortunate happening has a deeper and more Holy reason for all fits together as one,so that it can complete the picture that Holiness can help us see.
HaShem speaks'Acharei Mot,' after the death of Aharon's two sons and shows us that life goes on,not just for Aharon,but for his sons as well,for after 'Acharei Mot,'the words 'Shnei B'nei Aharon B'Karvatam Lifnei HaShem Vayamutu,' can also be read,'The two sons of Aharon came close before HaShem when they died.'There is life after passing for HaShem,who is All Beautiful and All Holy and beyond,is to whom we travel-whether in this life or afterwards.Aharon kept silent for he knew on a level beyond the physical,that his two sons were before the most Holy,HaShem The Holy One Blessed Be He.
This is the Shabbos before Pesach when our people were freed from the bondage of physicality of Mitzrayim(meaning 'borders') ,to come under the Holy wings of HaShem.So this is the time to free ourselves from the physical that holds us down and reach up to Heaven for only with HaShem is the true freedom.Only after we have physicality tuned ourselves and made ourselves pure,can we see,that even after trying times,the light is sure to follow and so,HaShem awaits us longingly.For all is as HaShem sees it for with love,we feel and know that the truest path and only path is with HaKadosh Baruch Hu The Holy One Blessed Be He.
With love and with sweetness,I wish HaShem with ultimate love,a Blessed Shabbos and sweet Pesach with love,as I wish you all a beautiful Shabbos Kodesh with love and a sweet and Holy Pesach.